Lack of update...

Sorry I haven't been making updates... I barely have time to shower, let alone sit on the computer and type anything meaningful. Laura is currently asleep... I'm holding her with my left arm and typing with my right hand, which is a slow process. She refuses to sleep in her crib, refuses to sleep in her rocker... pretty much refuses to sleep anywhere except on me. Nurses say to let her sleep this way for now because letting her cry it out is too traumatic for a baby her age. When I asked how old she has to be before I can break her of this habit, they said 1-3 months...

I admit, I tried letting her cry... she just keeps going, forever, until she's red in the face. She doesn't stop until I pick her up.

I'm trying my best to do this right, but I can't let her scream, especially at night. The walls are paper thin here, and the neighbors above me love to find reasons to complain as a way of revenge for the times I've called the cops on them.

I don't sleep much, but that's expected. I'm supposed to feed her every two and a half hours during the day and every three to four hours at night, but she wakes up every hour or so, no matter what time it is. It's hard to keep her calm during the time she's awake so that she isn't "snacking" every hour, as she will scream until I feed her, pacifier or not.

But I love her... so I will get through this. I want to cherish the time together, but I can't deny that I'm hoping the next year goes by quickly... I'm told that raising a kid is hard, but the first year is the hardest, and if you can survive the first year, it gets better.

Here's to hoping.